Impostor Syndrome

There’s a moment before I do anything big.  Sometimes the moment lasts only a second, and sometimes the moment lasts years.  In that moment I am frozen.  I can’t make a decision.  I can’t say yes.  My dad thinks I hold back because I am afraid to succeed.  That I’m afraid of the attention that might come with success.  I’ve always thought that it is because I’m afraid that people will know that I’m not “good enough”.  I’m afraid to stand up boldly and declare “this is who I am – this is my work and I’m proud of it” because I’m afraid that someone will call me out right then and there.  They’ll remind me that any success I have is due to luck, or timing, or my ability to trick people into believing I’m more than I am.  That one day everyone else will also be able to see what a fake I am.  There’s a name for this I’m told.  It’s called impostor syndrome.  And as much as I like to consider myself unique, I hear that this “condition” is actually quite common – particularly among women.  It’s unfortunate.  How many people, artists, musicians, writers,  photographers have held themselves back because they’re afraid?  Not that they’ll fail, but that other people will write them and their work off as fraudulent.  As a fluke.  And the truth is… the fears aren’t actually based in any truth.  In fact, it’s when I rally the courage to take those steps forward to face and pursue my deepest insecurities and desires that I’m met with the most encouragement and support.  

Find out what makes you feel at home and chase it.  Better yet, fight for it.  Because I think it’s only then that we are able to stand behind our work with pride and confidence, knowing we are doing exactly what we should be doing. 

Chasing the Light…

– Lauren.


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Think About Kissing…

This family is so cool.  They live in the mountains in a yurt.  They’re in the process of planning and building an earthship.  They travel the world with there two young kids.  They raft and snowboard and basically everything else you can think of that’s extreme and outdoors and are the definition of adventure.  You can see how much they love spending time as a family and had some very creative ways of making each other smile and laugh for me.  They are such a goofy, happy, active, loving group of people and it was my pleasure to spend a bit of time with them back in September getting a little taste of how they live.  Thank you for welcoming me into your home and letting me capture a bit of your crazy awesome lives.  


 

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

 

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta | YYC Photographer

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He Just Has To Kiss Me

When I do mini sessions I generally say that they include approximately 15-20 images.  Well.  I shot this family for half an hour and I probably could have sent them 50.  What a photogenic group of people.  Of course, if you’ve followed my blog at all over the last few months you will be familiar with their faces.   I loved getting to visit with them out at their mountain property and spend some time exploring the woods and meadows.  The day was grey and wet, the colours were just the way I love them, and Elias was in his usual happy mood.  What more could I ask?  My favourite moment of the day probably happened when Cyra was looking through the photos afterward and exclaimed “He can’t help himself! Every time he looks at me he just as to kiss me!”  I love that kind of love.  And I love you three!


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The Mountains Bring Peace to the People

I spent last weekend in the beautiful mountain town of Canmore with three of my very best friends.  I feel confident calling them that because in one weekend I had more meaningful conversations than I’ve had in the last month combined.  These girls challenge me and encourage me to live to my full potential.  I hope I can find ways to do the same for them.  I found myself thinking about how my life has grown and changed in the last 7 or 8 years, and about how different my life would look if I had never met these three beautiful souls.  I wanted to share some of the most important lessons I’ve learned through my adult life thus far.  Most of these lessons I’ve learned the hard way, so I certainly won’t judge you if you need to take that road as well.  No preaching here – just some rambling thoughts…

1.  Seek ways to be generous.  I don’t have a lot of spare change to throw people’s way when they’re needing it.  But I can sure make a good meal for a friend, or bring them a treat when they’re feeling down, or share a glass (or a bottle) of wine.  Generosity does at least as much for my spirit as it does for the person I’m being generous with.

2.  But also – be generous with yourself.  I can be so incredibly hard on myself.  Sometimes it’s a good thing.  It forces me to work harder to achieve my goals.  But it can be a huge hinderance.  I was convinced I would never be “the best” singer, so I just didn’t do it.  I was convinced I would never be “the best” photographer, so I just didn’t do it.  It’s held me back in so many areas of my life, especially artistically.  Strive for greatness but be gentle and generous with where you are at.

3.  Listen.  Don’t just hear the words people are saying to you.  Really listen.  It’s the biggest gift you can give someone and the biggest gift to receive when you’re in need.  It’s easy to get caught up in our own lives, and in our own problems.  But if we can take the blinders off and tune to our friends and neighbours I think everything starts to seem more manageable.

4.  Be slow to anger, but get angry when it matters.  I honestly believe that there is nothing wrong with healthy anger.  There are things in this world that absolutely deserve our anger.  How we choose to express that anger is what actually matters.

5.  Forgive.  Forgive.  Forgive.  Goodness.  I’ve struggled with the learning of this one.  But I’ve come to understand that bitterness and resentment hurts me far more than the person I’m angry at.  And usually the anger is just a mask for my hurt anyway.  Learn to forgive.  Do it every day.  And watch how the heaviness lifts.  Seriously.  It’s a weight on you that actually physically lifts when you can achieve this.

6.  Live with courage, not with fear.  Sometimes people tell me I’m “brave”.  I always say thank you but mostly I just want to laugh.  “Me? Brave?”.  No.  I find myself so often making decisions based in fear.  Fear of hurting people, fear of disappointing people, fear of being hurt, fear of failing, fear of being rejected.  But when I manage to shake off that fear for long enough to make a decision based in courage, that’s where the magic is.  Say yes more often and see if your life becomes richer.

There.  That’s all for now.  I’m sure there are hundreds of other lessons I’ve learned, and maybe I’ll find times to share some more of them.  These are the few that have been sitting on my heart this week.  And these are a few pictures that have been sitting on my computer.  


Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

Lauren Hamm Photography | Lifestyle Photographer | Calgary, Alberta

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Lauren.